losing weight...or not

i need to vent. why is it so darn easy to GAIN weight but so, so, so, so, SO DARN HARD to lose weight???? argh!!! perhaps a few of you have wondered why i haven't blogged about Weight Watchers for a while. well. i'll tell ya why. it's because i have really been STRUGGLING for the past six weeks at least. i'm learning so many wonderful tools to use at my meetings. i feel motivated after meetings. even if i've had a gain after stepping on the scale. so why can't i hang on to that and actually CONSISTENLY USE the tools i've learned??? i surely wish i was more like Peter. he doesn't have a problem with emotional eating. in fact, he doesn't really understand it. he doesn't have a problem with eating too much 'because it's there in front of you and it's yummy and so of course more must be better'. he might occasionally be tempted to overeat when he's starving, but he usually stops himself from doing so. argh!! to all you out there who haven't ever had much of a weight issue--if any at all--COUNT YOUR BLESSING! count it as 100 blessings in one, actually! ...what a trial it is for me... so, i've tried regrouping and pep-talking and reading my WW literature over the past couple of weeks. it has helped. some. not enough to keep from eating fattening ice cream last night. and too many of Peter's chocolate chip cookies today. GRRRRRRRRRRRRR...!! why do i have to like food so much?? so, so frustrating! in addition to venting, i thought i'd let y'all know what WW is doing for the next 6 weeks. for every pound that is lost throughout all of WW, they will donate a pound of food to those less fortunate. we all set a specific goal we wanted to work on for the next six weeks. i decided that i wanted to lose at least 11 pounds. i'm afraid that i've already screwed up my efforts to reach that goal with eating too much this weekend. but ALAS...i can't get stuck on the negative otherwise i'll just spiral downward. SO, i shall keep pluggin' forward. and perhaps now that i've 'put myself out there' by blogging about this, i'll find it easier to stay more committed. maybe a few of you will want to keep tabs on my progress; maybe even check in with me. anyway...thanks for letting me SPEW. think i feel a little better. oh, can't wait for The Biggest Loser to start up again; that's such an inspiration for me. :)